Am I such a weakling?

You are seeking absolution from others when no one can ever truly make you happy. Happiness comes from within. You are learning this at a young age and one day you will appreciate it. There are those out there that have it or have had it worse than you. People seldom live up to our expectations and I have learned to not have any preconceived notions on how someone should be, we are who we are, the good and the bad.